The Foot

So you may have noticed that last week I had a fall and I fractured my foot. That’s the one. On a A&E hospital trolly with gas and air keeping me calm. I’m such a girl! It was incredibly painful to the slightest touch.

This meant that  I couldn’t run in the Great West Run last weekend and I won’t be able to run in the Superhero 5k next weekend. I have a fracture between two of my toes and it’s pretty painful to do anything but sit down right now.

It’s also incredibly frustrating and upsetting. I just got to a point physically and mentally where I felt my fitness was going great, my diet was going great and I was happy with my progress. It feels like a massive hindrance has happened and I’m back at square one. The challenge was really motivating me and I think I will take some of that forward to my general blogging habits, I got out of the routine of setting myself goals and I need to get back in to it again.

I’ll admit now there was a few days where food went massively downhill and I lived on junk. I dread to think what the scale is doing but I’m not looking until the 1st June. As of Sunday I am back to it again, working through the cravings again, the sore stomach and the sugar withdrawal. It feels good to know that despite it being a struggle right now I’m making the right choices for my body. I binged because I was so angry with myself, with my body, for sabotaging me at the worst of moments. I recognise that when I’m angry I binge, thankfully I’m rarely angry these days but when I am my god it goes a little mental. Thankfully the man is being awesome and is helping me get back on track.

So right now I’m in a world of pain and frustration, it will improve though. I’m going to start putting together some foot free workouts that I can do with my upper body and I’ll post them as soon as I have done them. Tomorrow and the next day are my mini challenge posts for the Ready For Summer Challenge, all will become clear when they are posted if you aren’t doing the challenge.

So I’m salvaging my sanity and trying to get on with being healthy without the stuff I really enjoy lol. I’m here, I’ll be logging and I’m doing ok.

Does Shame Make Any Difference?

It’s not often that I really want to talk about fat issues and such like. I don’t waffle on about social construction all that much or give opinion on political stuff, not here anyway! But being laid up means I have lots of time to read. An article about the school campaign mentioned below started me thinking and this is what fell out of my brain. Hopefully it makes sense and I’d love to hear YOUR opinions.

There has been yet another study released lately which shows that obesity – or just being fat – is something which can affect prospects in every area of your life. The journal of Obesity recently determined that overweight women particularly, are likely to be discriminated against when applying for jobs including receiving a lower starting salary. The study, which was undertaken by the University of Manchester and Monash University, Melbourne, says that there are many negative connotations associated with both slim bodies and large bodies but that larger bodies are more likely to receive negative attention.

 I personally have been bullied in two workplaces, on both occasions my weight has been the butt of jokes made at my expense. It’s been used to humiliate me, belittle me and generally treat me as someone who deserves to be treated badly. I was raised to take people as people. Not to judge by appearance but by character. Apparently that doesn’t take much to judge my “fat person” character.

I think we forget when we say that we (society) are battling a war against obesity that we are actually fighting a war against people, obese people. People marked obese by a chart devised by a person. Just a person. There is a society wide moral panic, and it’s aimed at obese people and when government and health advisor’s combine and say we must fight obesity it’s hardly surprising that those who are obese become public targets.

“We really have declared war on obese people,” said Dr. Kimberly Redding, director of the Health Promotion and Disease Prevention Program at the Georgia Department of Public Health.

It’s really scary that as a society we regularly declare there is a war against some of the people that make up that society. Regardless of health, or explanation they are branded something we need to attack and attack we do. Fat is now a societal symbol of disease, indulgence, poverty, disregard for personal dignity and sloppiness, it’s also a judgement of lifestyle choices similarly made against gay men in the 1980′s. Most of all it’s presumed that weight is an indicator of health. There are numerous studies that disprove this, I feel to an extent I disprove this. I have perfect blood test results – lipids, blood pressure, cholesterol, sugar, everything is normal. I can run, I can carry out tasks of fitness that many slimmer people would struggle with, because fitness is earned, not all bodies are. I spotted this on Pinterest and thought it was interesting.

We do lap up celebrities who tell us that they eat burgers all the time, and still frown when people admit they are doing the right things and not losing weight. We are told that it’s calories in and calories out but it can be so much more complicated for some people. In the majority it’s not but it’s soul destroying when it is, either by physical or mental problems , losing weight and being healthy can be incredibly tough at times. What we forget when we hear celebs talk about their diets is that they are a brand and they live in a world of unparalleled privilege, very often they have come from privilege and continue to live in it.   How often do we jump to the conclusion that a fat person is lying or deluded when they claim they are doing everything they can?

People claim to worry about the strain that fatties chose to put on the economy in the UK particularly where health care is free at the point of service. Papers re hash the figures about the “strain” on the NHS pretty much annually, I can only see one point of this. To shame the larger community in to “doing the right thing” and getting their weight down as if it will solve all financial issues that the NHS. Does shaming work?

In the USA strong for life have been heavily criticised for their shaming campaign featuring children.

At first view this poster seems to be shockingly honest. I know as the big kid at school I was miserable because of my peers reactions to me, but the truth is when I was dangerously thin, they still bullied me. Plus does shaming a person really work in respect to causing positive change? I know that the humiliations I suffered never made me think “I know I’ll have a salad for dinner”, I know that the “chats” my Gran had with me about losing some weight never encouraged me to do that, in fact that anything to do with shame or judgement left me piling on the lbs. Why would you nurture something that you are supposed to be ashamed of?

Then should we be considering the kids who are happy in their own skins? What about those who aren’t bullied? Who aren’t ashamed? Aren’t those the ones we should be celebrating rather than shaming? Is it really what we want as a society to propagate this opinion that fat = shameful? I personally don’t feel this helps young people have self esteem, or better health any more than the weigh and measure scheme in the UK educates parents and kids about  what’s a healthy size. We attach so much meaning to a set of arbitrary numbers from the second our children are born, first it’s centile charts which tell us where on the “normal” scale our children were born on to adulthood when we measure our worth by the number on the scale or the inside of an item of clothing.  Why do we put pressure on the individual response rather than the group one? Why target the victim of abuse rather than educating the abuser?

In opposition to the campaign the Health At Every Size group have released a number of posters which give their opinion on the childhood obesity campaign.

Even in the case of the word Obesity we are de personalising the people behind the label. A certain number puts some people in to a certain group. That group has had war waged on them based on nothing more than an individuals maths calculations and visual assessment. Why does society have such a problem with fat? Fiscal issues have long been debunked, a 2005 study led by Katherine Flegal of the Centres for Disease Control in the US found that people in the “overweight” category of 25-30 BMI (where Brad Pitt and George Clooney sit) demonstrate a lower death rate than their peers who are of “normal” weight. Many medical studies have shown thin isn’t good and fat isn’t bad. Stable weight, for example, causes far less stress to the heart than going up and down the scales in weight. Thin people with health issues don’t get demonised for their size. Thank goodness. But then neither should fat people.

I do think that consumerism is at the core of the movement against the fatties. We live in a consumer society, we are told to consume consume consume and that our economy depends on it. However doing this publicly, loudly, is seen as crass and undignified. What you carry on your body is pretty much as public as you can get, so we turn our noses up at largely branded clothing as it’s seen as overtly flaunting your wealth, fat tells people you consume and people presume that this shows a lack of restraint, similar to wearing a large branded logo all over your clothes. Society deems this unpleasant.

Susie Orbach (writer and psychotherapist) explains this part of my opinion much better than I can!

Of course fat doesn’t really say or imply such things, but surrounded by images of perfected bodies, invitingly displaying the hugely expensive and lavishly marketed goodies that we are roused to desire, fat becomes the vehicle on to which we project all the ugly aspects of our over-consumption and hunger for objects. Consumer society tantalises us. We then try within ourselves to control the needs that are being constantly stimulated. It’s not unlike other forms of discrimination. In this case, people who have nothing in common except for their size…Fat looks on the surface as though it is about a failure of restraint. 

In my experience seeing other people ashamed of their body led me to become ashamed of my body as well. It led me to diet before I was 9 years old.

It’s only when I started to really care about myself and my body that I began to be able to treat it better and understand what is healthy for my body and mind. My weight has followed but has been more successful when I started to understand that the scale really isn’t the indicator of my health. It tells me how much my body weighs. That may sound simple but really the connections that society and those in the midst of becoming more healthy make with the scale go far beyond it being a measuring device of bones, skin and other body components.

I stand for the content of people’s character over the size of their jeans.

Ready For Summer Challenge Update

So week 6 is down and we are over half way to the end, 4 weeks left people ! Lets pull out the big guns!

So week 6 has been an interesting week for me, challenging in some areas and great in some others. Yesterday I did a recap of my fitness adventures this week and I’ve been a busy girl in all areas of my life.

So I set some goals last week and this is how I went with them.

Make sure I get enough rest. (Sleep and physical rest before 5k next Sunday).

I’ve tried, I’ve been getting to bed at a reasonable time, being selfish about getting up in the morning but sadly my son has had a spate of nightmares (which wake him screaming and scared about 4am) and he’s been waking because of growing pains in his legs. He’s suddenly sprouted a good couple of cms the last few weeks and his legs are feeling the stretch. Poor fella. I can’t stay mad at this face though. 

Run Three Times

After having this goal for 3 weeks I was actually finally on track to manage it this week but sadly I didn’t :( For those who follow my facebook/twitter/blog you will know I fractured my foot in a tumble down the stairs. I’m completely devastated as I’d planned to run the next day and on Sunday in the Great West Run. I did manage a 4k run on Wednesday before I did my foot in. It was in the woods in the giant heat (the weather here in the UK is mental at the moment, it’s hot then cold then pouring then droughts!?) which I actually enjoyed while I wasn’t in the mood when I started off. It wasn’t a fast run, it was a run / walk / run / walk situation but I finished and achieved what I wanted to. I also thought the route was flat but it’s not! I explained in my this weeks fitness post.

 

Make 5K Playlist & Get Gear Ready The Night Before

So the playlist is totally done but I won’t get to use it because of my stupid foot… If you don’t know some of these tracks You Tube them and let me know what you think!

 


Try a new recipe for Paleo

The man and I made up our own trail mix recipe, quite pleased with it too! You can get the recipe for the Bond Paleo Trail Mix by taking a look at the post from the other day.  It’s so so so scrummy as a small snack.


Do a test run of birthday cupcakes (
I’m making some cupcakes for a birthday party next month but I’ve never made them before so practising).

The birthday cupcakes are doing brilliantly, I’m very pleased with how they turned out, my inventiveness in the kitchen is a great outlet for me, I really love making stuff. I’ll post the recipes for download soon but I don’t want to tempt anyone! I haven’t eaten them all either we took some to the neighbours, the Man took some to work, I took some to family too. All agreed they were great.

Think about adding more overall goals in each category for the next 5 weeks.

I’ve found this one a real challenge but I think I’ve come up with some good goals for each category, it was a bit like going back to the drawing board really. I thought about what goals I would set if I was starting a 4 week challenge from now going by the guidance given by Maren at the start of the challenge.

Weight Loss

I want to be in the 220′s by the end week of the challenge. This is ambitious but I want something to push towards, if I don’t make it I won’t die or anything but it’s a goal to work towards.

I don’t want to gain weight while I’m injured.

Non Scale Victories

I’d like to keep recognising my Non Scale Victories on the window.
I would like to knock some time off my start of the year 5k time. (As long as my foot has been healed).

Exercise

I want to reach week 3 of the Couch to 5k Programme as it’s written.
I would like to complete two boot camp classes a week.

All when my foot is healed of course.

Nutrition

Continue with Paleo and be strict with myself.
Try one new Paleo recipe a week.

While we are on overall goals here are the rest of them!

Weigh in once a month
Eat Dinner at the Table 5 Times a Week.

Ensure you plan and work out 3 times a week.
Stick to Paleo for the 30 day challenge
If You Eat Out, Make Good, On Plan, Choices.
Recognise and Acknowledge Your NSV.
Plan and track your exercise using Polar Personal Trainer.
Start the 100 sit ups and 100 push ups training plans, complete 3 times a weekminimum.
Create your fit folder and keep it up to date!
Take the relevant steps to prepare for Paleo
Quit Diet Coke in the House

and to set some mini goals for myself this week, I’m treating it a bit like a to do list :

Log food on MFP every single day honestly and accurately.
Enter two more races to make up for the ones that I’ll miss this and next week.
Work my upper body and do foot free exercises at home
Say hi to Boot Camp people.
Contact Exeter Leukaemia Fund and Antony Nolan re: Missed Runs
Work on Fundraising Ideas. 

The Bond Paleo Trail Mix

So Paleo Trail mix has TONNES of variations all over the web but no so many British ones so the man and I decided to make our very own version of it. Obviously with my injury I need to stay on point with my nutrition as much as possible.

So we decided we needed a snack outside of plain jerky and so put these things together in an amazingly beautiful British Paleo trail mix.

Trail mix is a great snack, full of good fats and protein and it’s already proved a great work snack for the Man.

All the ingredients (unless stated otherwise) are plain, unsalted and raw ingredients. We try and buy decent quality things which are readily available from supermarkets. Measurements are what we used but this isn’t an exact science. Do what you feel!

You will need:

120g Almonds
60g Pecans
70g Dried Ready to Eat Apricots – Chopped
60g Dried Ready to Eat Apples – Chopped
85g Beef Jerky – Chopped
60g Macadamia Nuts
50g Walnuts
40g Flaked Almonds
35g Sunflower Seeds
40g Raisins
25g Desiccated Coconut

Then essentially mix it together and store in an air tight container.


 There you have it. Bond Paleo Trail Mix. 

My Week Recapped

I feel like I’m really getting in to a groove with my fitness now, I’m feeling fitter and I know that that is partly to do with the fact I’m at my lowest weight in a very long time, so I’m feeling better about myself but also Man and I are making an effort to be doing things together at home and he’s been joining me at boot camp too. We both feel like rockstars when we finish a class and I hit some new records this week so I thought I’d recap my routine!

So each week I plan my workouts on my Polar Personal Trainer, at the end of this week I have my first 5k of the year (Sunday 6th May) The Great West Run for Exeter Leukaemia Fund, so I timed my training to allow me plenty of rest as well as ensuring I’m happy and ready to run on Sunday. I’m feeling fit and healthy and am driving forwards happily. I want to keep the downward trend of weight loss going.

So workouts this week:

Monday

Monday was a rest day, I ran errands and kept moving, was productive at home and spent some quality time with the Man.

The cat had been poorly and continued to be poorly so I popped him up to the vet and he had a fever. 3 injections and £30 lighter the cat started to feel better and is thankfully now back on top form. He’s 7 months old, we’ve had him since he was 2 months old and he’s really special to all of us. Bless him he was a bit forlorn.

Tuesday

Boot camp! God I love boot camp, it was sunny I had the Man with me and we were worked HARD. We started off with a jog around the park, then we did a plank relay, then followed by a team of 3 effort around the basketball court. I worked so hard during that session, there is something about working as a team which means you push yourself harder, work harder so that you don’t let the people you are working with down.

My MAX Heart Rate according to my Polar FT7 was 210! Seriously I thought I might die when I read that, it was certainly reflected by my effort in the class and how I felt. I felt sick at one point but I seem too at every session so that’s just normal for me at high intensity I think. This is me after I finished! Yep my face doesn’t hide my effort very well lol I was bright pink for some time.

Wednesday 

Wednesday was a run day, I’d planned a Run for Monday and didn’t manage to do it so swapped my rest day for a run day. It was HOT as well, topping out at 22C. My legs were heavy and I’m pretty sure I power walked more than I ran.

Such a beautiful day though, hardly a cloud in the sky. So instead of running in the open heat I went to a wooded run which was really lovely. I always think the route is flat, and compared to my town it is, but it’s not flat at all! I actually got an email from runkeeper to tell me the good news.

Sweet motivator hey? When I checked out the run keeper stats I could see what it was on about.

The green block is the elevation, the blue line my pace. So yeah. Not flat. LOL. I was done by mid morning though and headed home for a well earned shower. When photographing real sweat on my face I realised my freckles are starting to make an appearance for summer. And because I’ve been asked a fair bit, nope they aren’t contacts, that is my real eye colour.

I even treated myself to a little treat and went to the hairdressers. I hated going to the hairdresser before. I always felt like a fat flump who squeezed herself in to the chair, and was patronised by skinny blonde girls. The salon I went to isn’t like that at all, I really like it there and they were so kind and lovely and got the cut I wanted just about perfect (hard to do when it comes to my hair). Wadda you think?

Then there was the gross bit of Wednesday. The man comes home from Ju Jitsu having dislocated his little toe. *blurgh* I hate feet anyway, the poor mans toe is swollen though. He popped it back in to the joint after finding it at right angles to his foot and he sought medical advice when he got home after finishing the session! Hardcore Man.

Thursday

Due to mans injury the night before instead of doing boot camp we went to the emergency doctors to have his toe checked over. All was well and he’s resting the toe but it’s well in place and he’s happy enough with it. I’m still having some lady problems and felt pretty shocking, nausea and bloating being the worst of it. Then I found myself at the bottom of the stairs, I don’t remember falling and the presumption is that I fainted. I spent some time in A&E with gas and air – fab stuff – and the upshot is I have a fractured foot. *insert sad face*.

I’m actually pretty upset about it but I don’t want to dwell too much. I indulged though. Chocolate. I felt more sick. Lesson learned.

So now I’m resting my foot in the hope it recovers quickly and I can get on with the rest of the year. I really was hitting my stride with fitness and I hope that I can continue to when I’m back to full fitness. The doctors are unsure how long that will take and so for now I’m four legged. Me and my metal friends.

50 Reasons To Be Happy

On Saturday I woke up, bobbled down the stairs and put the scale in it’s usual spot. In my PJs I stood there and expected to see myself having lost 1 or 2 lbs in the month that had passed instead I saw I’d lost 4 and some quick maths and a quick update of MyFitnessPal showed me this

I won’t lie. I did a little pajama’d dance in my kitchen with a grin on my face so large. So I thought about how I would post about it. I really had no idea because I could do a retrospective of 50lbs lost but then that’s a bit dull isn’t it? So I thought, I would post 50 reasons that I’m happy I lost 50lbs.

50 Reasons To Be Happy

1. I have dropped from a dress size 26 to an 18 (UK) and I’m only 1/3rd of where I want to be.
2. I can explore without being sore and having to stop all the time.
3. I can run.
4. I can do the belt up on an aeroplane.
5. I  feel more sexy.
6. I feel more comfortable in my own skin.

7. I’m more confident in nearly every situation.
8. I’m not afraid to meet people anymore.
9. I have more fun.
10. I’m more honest with myself.

11. I look after myself better and care for myself more.
12. I’m able to run after my son more.
13. I can ride a bike comfortably.
14. My skin is better.
15. I get to have cool gadgets to monitor my healthiness.
16. I have better condition hair now.
17. My family are proud of me.
18. I’ve done things physically I never thought I could manage.
19. I’m proud of myself.
20. I know what an endorphins highs feel like.

21. I’ve learned how to be happy at any size.
22. I’ve been told I’m an inspiration to some people. That feels amazing.
23. I like round numbers.
24. I can now go canoeing.
25. I’ve learnt how to cook some pretty delicious things.
26. I’ve discovered new fruit and veg which is yummy.
27. I’ve educated myself about health, nutrition and fitness.
28. I eat when I’m hungry knowing it’s all healthy.
29. I’ve learnt how to not let the scale dictate my self worth.

30. My son says I’m less squishy.
31. I feel I fit in better with my friends.
32. I’ve got much more energy.
33. My hair is in better shape.
34. My face is less squashed and more shaped.
35. I get complimented.
36. I’ve met a whole amazing community of people.
37. My self image has improved.
38. I can run without vomiting.

39. I’ve got to work with some great companies.
40. I can find more choice of clothes.
41. I like wearing make up again.
42. I enjoy visiting the hairdressers again.
43. My underwear is prettier
44. I’m more self assured and not as “needy”.
45. Food is fuel now, my life is not filled with a need to stuff my face.
46. I sleep better.
47. I found that inside there is still a girl who loves sport.
48. I also learned to love my competitive self and use it to my advantage.

49. I can go swimming again without fear of my swimsuit.
50. I feel great.

Be Happy Guys :)

May Happiness: Get Serious About Play

I LOVE the sound of this months Happiness Online. May is all about how you play. How you spend those magical hours outside of work, be it professional work, personal work or house work, all of them are work.

Think about the activities that you do just because you like them, because you enjoy them, you do them just for you. Gretchen explains in the book (pg 112) that the absence of feeling bad  isn’t enough to make us happy, that we actually have to actively find sources of feeling good. Making time for play will help make you feel good. Gretchen thought about what she really wanted to achieve for this month and it was “have more fun” & “cultivate creativity”.

She really had to think about what she found fun, rather than loving the idea of something what she actually loved doing. So thinking about things that she actually enjoyed rather than what she wished she enjoyed. I think a lot of the time I love to write but what I don’t love is this:

So I started to think about what I really enjoy. I love writing here, about everything in my life, it really does take a lot of my time though which sometimes can push out other hobbies out of the way a bit. Photography is a consistent hobby I guess but it was also my April Resolution (dammit!) so I don’t want to repeat that one. So I’m going to take this month as a chance to really embrace the things I really really enjoy and challenge myself to fit them in to my life.

Get Outdoors More

It took a while to get there but I realised that being outdoors really is the time I’m most happy, particularly when the Man and Boy are with me. We live in an area of outstanding natural beauty and I think we’ve explored about 10% of it. We need to do more! We have camping gear which we haven’t used yet. Insane. It’s on the list for sure.

Outside of that I need to prepare better for the great outdoors, there is a saying that there is no such thing as bad weather, just bad clothes. I have just bad clothes for the great British weather. So I need to get more prepared, I may have to make a list of stuff I need. I love a good list. The great thing about the outdoors is that you can do it with friends, family and anyone you please.

Read More

I don’t ever give myself enough time to read. I love books, I love to read but I don’t do it enough mostly because I don’t give myself the time to do it. I’m going to make more time and prioritise it. It helps me sleep and it’s great for keeping my mind ticking over. Plus you learn from books, learn things that maybe you would have gone your whole life without knowing, like that picture shows us, it opens up the world to us. I want some more of that!

In preparation I’ve downloaded some books to my Kindle and I have some hand me down books from my dad. I started the year well, I’ve read these books since the beginning of the year (and under the dome is MASSIVE).

Spend Quality Time as a Family

It’s something we always try to do is really spend the time we have together but there are times which bring conflict, like when there is a tonne of work, housework or other things to do which interfere with family time. So I pledge to spend at least a quality hour a day with my son after school everyday, part of this will be eating together too. Weekends are our haven time and I want to make sure at least one day of the weekend we do something away from technology and distraction and focus on family. We want to start Camping and that’s a great way to spend time together.

Celebrate My Wins

I’m not especially great at celebrating my wins. Last weekend I weighed in and realised I had lost 50lbs. It also happened to fall on the Man’s birthday. I stepped back, told him not to tell anyone and left it alone. Now the moment has passed and I haven’t really celebrated in the way I would have liked so I’m working on another celebration…more to follow.

So I’m going to start to celebrate my success, in small ways if I have to and big ways when I want to.

I’m sticking with four for this month and I’m pretty happy with them I think, hopefully you’ll see them all in practice over the next month. 

April Happiness Round Up

So April has actually been a positive month and generally I’ve noticed I feel happy. Because of some serious things going on in my personal life it’s actually been a great month for me to focus on lightning up a bit. So at the beginning of the month I made some resolutions and this post is to recap them. If you are taking part don’t forget to link up below.

Take Photographs

This has been a great success, I’ve absolutely loved having my camera available and ready for use. Plus I am now the proud owner of an iPhone 4s which has an ace camera on it so prepare yourself! The process of taking photographs, editing, and creating something makes me happy. It completely relaxes me having that little process in order.

Remember Today is Only 24 Hours.

This is a great one to help with any stressful situations, be it food related or life related, that horrible moment, that moment which is so stressful and keeps you awake at night could be so different the next day.

It’s also a great commitment thing too, you can do pretty much anything for one day.

Enjoy Planning 

I have been really motivated to plan stuff thinking about this resolution. It’s made me feel happy because it seems like lots of doors are opening to us and planning the future is really exciting. Planning means that we can practically achieve that future, planning means we have something to get us through day to day drudgery at times when things suck. We have amazing plans for our future, it honestly makes me so excited every time I think of it. I’m sat here smiling as it is!

This also makes me smile massively.


Enjoy Who You Are

This. I’ve been enjoying this too. I’ve changed my workout schedule which just wasn’t working for me, I’ve taken up a new class – outdoors in all weather – I love it already. It’s so me, the instructors are great, the weather sometimes is not, but they work you so hard in an hour. Over 600 calories in the last session. It fits in my life really easily and while it’s not everyones cup of tea it’s totally mine, and I hate tea.

I took this one to mean that, you may think it’s crazy at 6.30am at 5C in pouring rain to work out, but I loved it. All of it. There are some other things that have been part of my life over the last few years that are becoming more and more insignificant too, it’s cool though, life moves on, eyes are opened, change happens and usually, it’s great.


Blog When I Want To…And other things… 

Huh. Seems I’ve had a lot to say this month lol. I’ve not felt any pressure towards writing though which has been fantastic, I’ve enjoyed it a lot.

I’ve been fairly direct in “doing what I want to do” though, I’ve not been forced to go places because they are routine and I’ve said no to things which normally I would feel obliged to do.  It’s been liberating, I’ve still helped other people out, I’ve still done things for people other than myself but I’ve been able to say no to things that will over stretch me or prevent me doing things I really wanted to do.

How did your month go? Can you identify with my resolutions? 

Ready For Summer Challenge Week 5!

Week Five has FLOWN by for me, it’s been a busy and challenging week here in Bond towers but I’m pleased to say we are all ok. Yesterday was the mans birthday and I can confirm he had an excellent day, great company, lovely gifts and his family came to see him including his sister from London (3 hrs away from us by train).

So last week I completed the mini challenge and I also set myself some mini goals, they were directly related to the overall goals I had left to complete. Obviously they got written on my patio doors straight away so I could track all week how I was doing.

We’ve been asked to share an inspirational image too so here’s mine, I look at it a lot with the rest of my pinterest inspiration board, but this one speaks to me.

 I’ll recap how I did…

See 23 at the beginning of my weigh in number.

I weighed in at 235 lbs on the 28th. I’ve weighed in deliberately a little early in the month because that was man’s birthday and I knew there was going to be cake involved. I ordered one specially. This is probably (I haven’t kept close tabs but I’m pretty sure) my lowest weight in 10 years and I’m over the moon with it. It represents 50 lbs lost. 50 FREAKING POUNDS! I’ll post more about hitting the 50 later in the week but I did a weigh in post yesterday.

I posted a weight loss face and body comparison post on Monday after looking through pictures of myself from last year. This was one of them.

Run 3 Times. 

This has been a tough one for me. Motivating myself to go out and run while I’ve physically been feeling pretty terrible has been tough. I did go out and attempt to run twice but on the first occasion it was post legs boot camp and I really struggled, my knees were excruciating after a half a mile. I listened to my body and turned back. On Saturday I was suffering some nausea for some reason and decided not to run but to go out on Sunday instead. So I’ll be running today and trying to keep up some regular runs this week but not going too hard as my first 5k is on Sunday! One week to go! I’m going to continue with boot camp and make sure that I’m well rested. Early nights for me this week!

Make Good Choices While Out To Dinner. 

So the man’s only request for his birthday is that he really really fancied a curry. So he booked in to the local curry house for a night out with his sister, mum and dad. They’ve all been really supportive recently during *the super heavy stuff I’m not able to talk about* so it was great to go out and have a relaxing time with them.

I made great choices, I planned ahead looking at their menu online, avoided rice, bread and everything else. It wasn’t that hard in the end, I just thought about how lousy it would make me feel, the bloating, the pain, the gain. I just left it all behind and looked forward to my rest day the next day.

Plan More Exercise On Polar Personal Trainer

I started reasonably well on my initial training plan which I had tried to get on board with but it just wasn’t working for me, so I’ve amended my training and added it on to my polar personal trainer. I never stick carefully to things that I’m bored of, it’s something I recognise in myself and it’s not likely to change on things that are voluntary like exercise so I’ve changed it up again and I’m happy with what I’ve devised.

All the red ones are completed workouts. Then next weeks is all planned and ready :) I have put in an extra rest day as I think it’s needed with the 5k on Sunday.

 Take a new exercise class.  

I loved winning this one. I did a boot camp in the park at the ungodly hour of 6.30am on Monday and I loved it. Check out the recap of the class in my Boot Camp post. Honestly it was so fun and sweaty and so totally me! Outdoors in the rain and elements having heart pumping fun. I dragged Man along to the slightly later 9.30 session on Thursday which was a full leg workout which had us both working hard. In both sessions I burnt over 100 calories per 10 minutes of exercise. For an hour. I looked like this when I was done.

Get the table laid and cleared of stuff so we can eat at it! 

Our dining table is in the kitchen and at the moment doubles as a desk, general dumping ground and all kinds of things. This has sparked off much other tidying and clearing up activity in the house which has been great. Charlie decided to donate some toys to the Clic shop on our high street, we’ve had a clear out and have started to make a mini office space for me.

Anyway back to the point, I spent Monday, post boot camp workout trying to walk around and keep moving to stop my muscles seizing up and ensure that I wasn’t like a zombie the next day! So I cleared the table and made it prettier. It went from this

to this, a much more suitable haven for a lovely meal.

The weeks NSV’s

I keep writing them on the doors, it’s really keeping me positive to see the things I’m achieving each week, especially when I am feeling tempted or down. I still have days where I just want to curl up and sleep all day so seeing positive things right there and a list of things I can achieve in a week.

So that is the round up of my mini goals, I’ve made an amendment to my overall goals, I wasn’t getting on with my training programme so I’ve amended it. my overall goals were:

Weigh in once a month
Eat Dinner at the Table 5 Times a Week.

Complete at least 5 weeks of your training plan
 Ensure you plan and work out 3 times a week.
Stick to Paleo for the 30 day challenge
If You Eat Out, Make Good, On Plan, Choices.
Recognise and Acknowledge Your NSV.
Plan and track your exercise using Polar Personal Trainer.
Start the 100 sit ups and 100 push ups training plans, complete 3 times a weekminimum.
Create your fit folder and keep it up to date!
Take the relevant steps to prepare for Paleo
Quit Diet Coke in the House

I am doing the weigh in once a month but that won’t be crossed off till the end of the challenge, I’ve done 35 days of paleo, I am writing up my NSV each week, making good choices, using my polar personal trainer to plan my exercise. The push up plan is going well, 3 times a week is really achievable.

So this weeks mini goals.

Make sure I get enough rest. (Sleep and physical rest before 5k next Sunday).
Run Three Times
Make 5K Playlist & Get Gear Ready The Night Before
Try a new recipe for Paleo
Do a test run of birthday cupcakes (
I’m making some cupcakes for a birthday party next month but I’ve never made them before so practising).
Think about adding more overall goals in each category for the next 5 weeks

Slightly Early Weigh In

I know there are two days left to the end of the month but today is my husbands birthday. Why does that effect it you say? Well even if when I make good choices tonight no matter what I eat I’m likely to carry some  salt and water weight which will bum me right out.

I’m not expecting to lose a lot this month, my nutrition has been ok, it blew out at the beginning of the month but has improved since then, I saw a 5lb gain early in the month then suffered the period from hell which included a week’s worth of tetchy Becky (sorry Man)  and bloating to accompany the tetchy. Lets not mention the following week. Ick. So overall I’m at peace with the idea I might have even maintained. I’ve also really started to ramp up the workouts in the last week. This always leads to a plateau for a week  or two for me, water weight mostly because I don’t drink enough. Must work on that, maybe a goal for the summer challenge!

Starting Weight: 285 lbs
End Of March: 239 lbs
Weigh In Today: 235 lbs
Lost This Month: -4 lbs
Total Loss: 50 lbs

This month has been a bit of an experiment. With the Paleo thing I also raised my calories a bit. I set MFP to register 1.5lb a week loss. The change in how I feel has been immense.I’ve been eating well and getting close to my goal as much as I can. I struggle to eat back my exercise calories but I have enough bulk and body fat % to get away with that at this stage. I have a lot more energy, I feel healthier, my skin is better, and sleep better.

BUT I’ve not actually dropped much this month. While I’m not to worried I feel like there should be more urgency, I want to be in good shape when I get to work in September but it will come. I know that my women’s troubles (lol) and my increase in exercise will affect things but it’s still a touch irritating. I’ve been really pleased with my progress overall, I posted a post about my photo progress, I’m starting to *see* the changes in my body & my face.

If I can keep going, keep food right and exercise consistent then the scale will follow. I hope.

Here’s to May. May the odds be in my favour?